At the moment, I am a double felon with a conviction for
Misuse of 911, so my job is developing patience.
Patience as I learn the judgement in the appeal I won in
2014 was never filed. Patience while the
search for the transcript from the appeal hearing continues. Patience as my urge to turn against myself
for engaging That Situation in the first place is at an all-time high.
I appreciate this situation.
I appreciate this situation.
I appreciate this situation.
I appreciate the CRAP out of this situation SO MUCH
that it’s getting transformed as I type.
To turn this vibration around, I’m listing the jobs I appreciate
I didn’t get:
- A position for which my education and experience is in alignment (this was a blessing in disguise as failing the background check for this is how I discovered the judgement in my appeal was never filed);
- A position at a locally-owned retail shop (no background check required);
- A position at a restaurant owned by an acquaintance who knows my story. She politely turned me down, saying I had to put my giftings to better use (true);
- A position with an organization that specializes in hiring people with colorful backgrounds;
- A teaching position (basic mathematics and Algebra) with a Christian university (no background check required);
- A position with a European company seeking an American professional (I’ve also done hard time in the corporate world) who’s an expert in both English and math (no background check required); and,
- A position with an academic support company doing voice-over work “enthusiastically” reading statistics textbooks (no background check required)
That’s what I thought.
I’m still a bit unsteady and so
it takes longer than one might think to pick myself up and dust myself off and
start all over again.
And again.
And again.
And again.
And again.
And again.
And again.
I know something’s gotta give and I’m pretty clear it has to
be me.
I also know I should be sitting my ass in my chair and
writing like I’ve been saying I should lo these past three years.
If only I had a clear sign that’s what I should be
doing.
