Gratitude

Uh, I Already KNEW That.

I AM a crazy bitch.

And I love every minute of it.

Allow Me to Repeat Myself

I’ve said it before and I will say it again: I am not the same person I was last Halloween (2009) and I totally, thoroughly, vehemently resent it.

And I am still stuck on: Was/am I THAT MUCH of asshole to have incurred all of that bullshit and heartache? How could I be so clueless about my own nature?

So, I wash, rinse and repeat as I have for the past 371 days: Don't take anything personally. Nothing others do is because of you. Even though that is your blood, its spillage was unintentional. That others are interacting with you is the illusion: Who they are truly interacting with is themselves, a part of which has been projected onto you.

Maybe this is why people don’t remember the color of your eyes or your birthday: It has nothing to do with them.

Cooperation

I understand that when our real and/or perceived “issues” materialize in our lives, we instinctively react with the fight or flight response.

Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could just cut off or out those parts of ourselves that we do not like? Without cost?

Some people run and hide. How does that work out, later?

Because of my own inability to accept my foibles, I have personally bled 85,672 gallons of blood out of my ass.

Meaning, I have learned the HARD WAY it’s always better to work with your Dark Side: Your inadequacies; shortcomings; weaknesses. Both real and perceived.

Cooperation.

Not domination; not submission.

Cooperation.

Working together, one can become stronger.

Meaning, all of the various parts of a person – the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful and the ludicrous – all of these parts must work together to create a whole person. A real person who is whole: The sum total of human experience, which is good, bad, ugly, beautiful and ludicrous, is present in one person. For that person to truly live, s/he must experience the sum total of all of those things…and be OK with it. 

When we shun or cut off people from our lives, what we are really shunning or cutting off is the part of ourselves those people represent to us.

Please note this does not apply to rude/impolite/dishonest/violent people. Those people should be shunned until they get over themselves.

I mean, really. There is enough actual BS in the world.

While I’m not saying you should invite your flatulent Aunt who drinks too much over for tea with your in-laws (although that would be a real experience), I *am* saying that it wouldn’t hurt to include her once in a while. 

Just like it will not hurt to buy those shoes or drink the whole bottle of wine or knock it out with a co-worker once in a while.

This is so much better than holding it all in and pretending we are pure virtue. We know what happens if that goes on long enough: We end up on Jerry Springer describing our arrest for holding up a convenience store while on a bender after our spouse left because s/he walked in on us performing fellatio with his/her best friend/sibling/cousin/parent.

I also think this would solve a lot of the problems created by politicians, but that’s a topic for a different blog.